The sky turned blood red. I’m on a long winding road. But the worst is just yet to come. Hv to climb the highest mountain and overcome this challenge I’m facing. I got a feeling I won’t be enjoying this journey.
I carried such a weight on my shoulders lately. It got heavy and harder to hold. So it happened on a sunny afternoon, that I placed it all temporarily on my outstreched right arm when I began falling down a fence, flying over a bin. That 5 sec was the longest half an hour of my life. This resulted in a nasty elbow dislocation, damaging nerves, blood vessels and ligament. Practically speaking at least 3 month out of action if lucky. My arm is completely numb.
Should hv checked the spot before skating to make sure its ok.
I just really wanted to get high to escape reality. By skating. Then I actually got high in the hospital having free drugs. When I say the doc was playing the guitar while I was screaming, and the nurse was trying my skates on is actually not a hallucination. Told u, this place is ridiculous. Had to wait 4 hours until someone put my elbow back to its place. Might show u this place one day. Got my GoPro on me. Before u ask, Yes. I hv already watched my epic fall back n got sick afterwards. Learnt another lesson. I tried to escape into skating, hide away underneath my blanket. There’s no escape. I hv to look for a way, and not a way out. Also, now I know my limits, I guess. I’m glad it happened now, as it could hv been a lot worse later, like breaking my neck. Next time I go beyond it, will be more careful. Wonder when that be.
I believe this challenge is an opportunity to build my inner strength and courage, to see how strong my will is. I’’m sure this experience will take me to a new level. The only path there is through breaking barriers, an often painful process.
Never knew what pain means until now.
I’m standing at a junction trying to type these words.
One leads to the other side of the mountain, and the other will get me lost forever. I’ll take my time. You won’t be hearing from me for a while. There won’t be signal up there,so won’t be using my phone or any sites -maybe just mine for occasionaly doodles-. I’m gonna cross the line where the digital virtual world diappears. Will keep myself to myself and live in the reality. If by any chance you see me at Winterclash that means I managed to skate downhill fast. Talking about my skates, don’t worry, they are in the safest place!
In my heart.