Sometimes you have to dance with death to appreciate life more..
I had surgery and was mistakenly overdosed with morphine, the careless use of drugs nearly led to my death. Breathing stopped all together, I was clinically DEAD for 3 minutes. I froze to the bone, only my brain & hearing functioned, I could not see nor did I respond or move, when finally came back to life, they put me into deep sleep. Woke up in the afternoon, I felt so fucking LUCKY not only to be alive but to come back ok and with no mental issues. I hv lost trust in everyone. First the police now the nurses & the surgeons who btw deny everything. I hv one big screw instead of a little metal wire put through both my bones, surgery took 3 hours longer than expected, I was going through hell on earth. Hopefully I won`t have to stay with a totally messed up hand for life cause it feels & looks utterly awful. In fact I`m gonna heal up and kick their asses. Some say its just an average day in the life of Mel`s.
The world tour is still on! When I was discharged from hosp, went `home` smiling the entire way. I`m after several near death experiences..but never lost a battle, n that showed me I`m stronger than I would hv ever imagined, capable of anything and that I hv some kinda mission I must complete therefore I won`t ever stop, I`ll keep going, live life to the fullest, fight for the beauty of each precious moment & skate till I die.
After the cast had come off I started physio. Though I got kicked out of the hosp after the 3rd sesh. Looks like I`m doing it on the road.. Stretching exercises while pulling my suitcase:)
Healing is coming on well, I can drink beer with my right hand now.
Everytime something dies inside me, something new is born, its always a beginning of a new start. I now understand! Unless the caterpillar dies, there’s no butterfly. We must transform to something more beautiful. We all go through changes before we become something beautiful. If I`m about to fail, it might actually be that I`m about to fly. The struggle developes the strength I need for tomorrow. I will surely use my wings that will transport me to another World.
I will continue my journey soon, next stop is Kiev. See u there.